Two years ago, today, I smiled with husband in front of what I thought would be my forever home. The place we would turn into our own and grow old together in. Today we met with our relator to sell it. It's not a home any more, at least not my home. But it's never going to be just a house. I thought I was starting to find a new normal to wake up and not cry every day. But today I am emotionally back to where I was 2 months ago, completely broken and unable to stop crying. I know healing isn't linear and there will be more days like today and that is the scariest part.
Knowing that I will be in a good place again, and then I'll be right back here.
All failures and mistakes all the pain flooding back in with full force, that's the scariest part of all of this.
Makes me want to curl up and disappear.
I am so sad for you. But you are loved. 🦮🌺
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