Valentine

Prior to my marriage, my luck with having a date on valentines day was low. I've been dumped on valentines day, I've broken a heart of another right before the holiday, I've spent most years single. Prior to my husband I had 1 attempt at a good valentines day- not his fault its the day I found out about my strawberry allergy and 1 really wonderful valentines day date though not on the day in 10 years of dating history. But in meeting my husband I found my person, I didn't ever have to wonder if there would be someone to say I love you to and to fuss over a little more on this very cheesy day every year. 

As I deal with the fact that many of those "I love you" statements probably weren't true or felt genuinely,  I also have to face this valentines day without my partner. I have wonderful friends who are making sure I don't spend it alone and I have a dance class to take my mind off of it, which I am so thankful for. But our world is so inundated with the holiday. You cannot walk into a shop or open any social media platform without the pink and red hearts, roses and people sharing wedding photos celebrating their partner. Celebrations of love abound. Which is really hard as I move through heart break. 

So for myself this year I am doing the following

1. Buying myself flowers

2. Buy some good chocolate 

3. Keep myself busy on the 14th I already have work all day and meetings but then I'm going out for beer and good pizza before maybe doing a barre class- we'll see how the beer and pizza are going. 

4. give myself permission to be sad if I need to be. 

So to everyone who doesn't have someone this Valentines day remember your worth is not defined by your relationship status even if the world is telling you otherwise. 

C