I've learned that there is no one that hates your ex more than your best friend. If you fall into that category, don't continue down this blog. You'll not be pleased.
For anyone still reading you were warned.
I miss him. Healing and grief aren't linear I know that, but I wasn't expecting the feeling I had last night and this morning of missing his company. I'm sure some of it comes from the fact that he is half a world away, some from the fact our divorce is moving into the next phase, some from being lonely, but I really missed being in his company last night.
Part of this process I have learned is the feeling that I'm making a mistake, or that I will regret this later on in life. I try to put that voice to bed or quiet it, because it is the choice I've made - that we've made. Regardless of how either of us feel about it later it's the part of life we are in now.
I'm glad to be going home to get time with family, hopefully help me heart feel less lonely and be able to make some progress in healing.
But right now, today, I miss him.
C
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