March. The month I signed and filed my divorce papers. This is the month the house I thought would be my forever home with my husband got put on the market. This was a month filled with pain and masking. Daily telling my students and the world that I was okay, while struggling to do the most basic things some days, like getting out of bed, eating food or showering.
But in that masking, in that faking it til I make it I did some fun things. I did some things I'm proud of.
1. I went to 3 jazz concerts by myself.
2. I went to a new museum
3. I tried new foods
4. I went on a walking tour and practiced talking to strangers
5. Made 2 mosaics
6. Did 2 paintings
7. Explored more Seattle Neighborhoods- and reminded myself why I like living in the suburbs
8. I got a much needed massage
9. Managed an emergency matter on my own.
10. I attended a live radio show taping and laughed so hard my soul healed a little.
I can acknowledge that I over did things this month. I was trying so hard to stay busy so I didnt have time to be a lone with my own negative thoughts, that I burnt myself out pretty badly. There was a lot of fun this month, but it came at a cost. So part of my goal moving forward is to budget the fun so that I can really enjoy it and give myself rest so I can do my job well, be a good friend and enjoy the regular days too.
All that said I have scratched 35 boxes off my 100 "Date" ideas bucket list since starting in January.
Signing off for now
C
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