New Years Resolutions

Everyone tells me I'm so strong and I'll make it through everything for the better. But I don't want to have to be strong. I want to be comforted and cared for and taken care of. I got married to have a partner in life and somewhere that went wrong and now I have to go back to being strong independent me when all I want to do is not be. 

So my goals for this year are pretty simple. 

1. Engage in my duo lingo app every day. I'm currently working on Norwegian. I'd love to go to Norway and see where my family comes from someday. 

2. Listen to 20 books this year. By this time last year I'd listened to 2-3 books. I haven't listened to a book at all since early December. I haven't had the brain power for it, so rather than the 75 I did last year, I set a goal of 20. 

3. Work out 2 days a week. I'm sure my trainer and best friend would like to see that number be higher, but I'm aiming for attainable and consistency. 

4. Enjoy my summer road trip.

5. Learn to be okay with being alone. 

There are also things I'd like to do, but if I don't thats okay too.

1. I got J a 100 date ideas for couples a few years ago. It got tucked behind a couch and then put in my office so never used-(Hello Red flag) but I have 100 ideas for fun activities that I want to do as an individual. 

2. Find a side hustle a way to earn some fun money to aid in the road trip this summer. 

3. Have people over for games at least 2x a month.

So there you go, a plan to survive 2024. If you'd asked me in Sept I would have said I was exited for 2024 to be a year to thrive. That's not my goal any more. My goal is to process and grieve and start over and survive. 

Signing off for now

C