I'm sad

I don't have much capacity beyond the emotion of sadness.
My school year is over as I had planned it. I wont get to see my students in person again til...who knows when but it wont be this school year.

I wont get to say goodbye to my seniors in the way that I had planned. I wont get time goodbyes and send offs for the staff that so much deserve that as they head off to new adventures.

I am sad because this is our normal now. I am sad because I don't know what this means for my students who were already struggling.  I'm sad because I don't know what this means for next year.

I'm sad because the only thing I have control over right now are my emotions, and it's all I have energy to be.