I know better

I know better than to panic about Corvid-19.
I know how to prevent the spread of germs.
I know how to wash my hands well.
I know how to keep hydrated.
I know how to take care of myself when I get sick.

But that doesn't stop the worry.
That doesn't stop the stress.
That doesn't stop the anxiety.
That doesn't stop the panic attacks. 
That doesn't make it not scary.

We have had 6 confirmed deaths in Washington.
Several schools are closed today- 1 in the down I live in, 2 in the town I spent most of Friday and Saturday in.
Tomorrow an entire district near ours is closed.
There is a suspected outbreak with dozens of people showing symptoms at a nurse home north of us.

I had was sick Sunday, I woke up sick this morning. The symptoms are not the same, but that doesn't mean I don't worry about myself, worry about the people I may come into contact with. Worry about things I have no control over.

 I know better, but some days, knowing isn't enough.