It’s no surprise that chronic illnesses don’t play by the rules and often interfere with the joy of peoples lives. Today is no exception. Today I was supposed to go see Beetlejuice at the Paramount; something I’ve been looking forward to for months today. I had one of the Worst acid reflux attacks that I’ve had in several months.
This means vomiting stomachs acid for over an hour. Inability to hold down even a sip of water- no ability to take any medication. Struggles to breathe. It causes dizziness and issues with balance. So I’m stuck on the floor in my bathroom-chronic illness taking away yet another piece of joy; yet another thing that I was looking forward to.
For people with chronic illnesses, including myself, it can be hard to plan ahead. To book things and spend nonrefundable money on activities that may be destroyed by one of our demons. In the last couple weeks, I have had a hair appointment go ride, not be able to go ice-skating and now this. But I can’t live in a bubble I can’t rule out joy because of pain. So today I sat on the floor in my bathroom and wrestled with one of my demons.
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