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Thursday, December 30, 2021

Resolutions 2021-22

 Honestly I had to go back and look up the resolutionsI made last year because I couldn't remember it.  Which is a Red Flag that it didn't happen. 

The goal I set for myself last year was to take care of my mental health. 

In some regards I did that and in others I failed.  

For a season (summer vacation) my mental health was my priority and I did a really good job of working through things. This summer I only had to worry about myself and making myself happy and that was so freeing; but its not reality.  I do think the time I took for myself this summer was important, and while it wont always be 50 days to myself, I do think taking a significant break from the responsibilities of being anything to anyone else is important for me.  

I have failed in that I am still struggling to find balance and that often means my mental health is not a priority in my life. 

I have gotten better at leaving the tangible computer and papers at work, but I'm not leaving the stress there. I bring the sadness, anxiety, stress, and frustration home with me, which has a negative impact on my personal life, overall health, and my marriage.  This year some aspects of my job that I cannot control but that directly impact my workload have reached a critical level. I am grateful for the special education team that I work with, that we are in consensus on pushing back on a system that isn't working. 

I am working to ask for what I need and to not apologize for coping in a way that works for me. Eeyore has been coming to work with me a lot lately.  Yes I'm in my 30's a bring a stuffed Eeyore to work and No I will not apologize for that.  For myself and many other Autistic people, stuffed animals are coping tools and calming supports. Having Eeyore at work helps me manage with classrooms get chaotic, when meetings get out of control and to work through the dozens of micro-aggressions I face daily 1) as a disabled person and 2) as a special education teacher. 


I know what it means to have my mental health be in a good place, and I want to get back to that, I'm just not sure of the steps I need to take to get there. So I guess that's the goal again for next year. 


Signing off for now

C

Wednesday, December 8, 2021

A few of my favorite things

Oprah has her list and so do I. You'll find most of mine live in a more affordable price point for the most part.  Please note that this is not a list of my favorite products released in 2021, rather a list of the favorite things I've used, worn, or had during the last 12 months. 
First and foremost Rakuten* is how I save money year round on my purchases, but especially at the holidays.  From cash back to discount codes, this is my favorite shopping tool. Every quarter you get a check in the mail for doing the shopping you're already doing.

Make-up: While this has historically been my FAVORITE category-  the continued masking of 2021 means that I haven't been wearing a lot of make up, so this list is shorter than normal. 

KVD Beauty Compact Foundation in the shade 010 Light
Foundation: KVD Beauty Good Apple Foundation I've only had this one a few months and I only wear foundation a few times a month so I almost didn't include it in this list, but my skin loves this. I use so little and can easily buff it in with any buffing brush.  It only takes a few minutes for a flawless look.  I use shade 010 Light
 Brows- Benefit Precisely, My Brow - I used up a full pencil this year and am half way through another one.  I'm not fully put together without brows filled in.  I use shade 3.5 



Eyes- Viseart - Paris Edit I love to play with eye looks. During a time when my eyes are all anyone sees, it's even more important.  This is my every day choice.  I can make so many different looks with it, it's small and easy to travel with (47 days this summer) and are all colors I reach for. Everything goes on effortlessly and blends nicely.  

Viseart Paris Edit Pallet. Cool tones

     Honorable Mention goes to Viseart Petit Pro 4- Apricotine which is what I reach for if I'm feeling warmer tones. 

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Skin and Hair care: As my love of makeup has been forced to move to the back burner I've taken the opportunity to fall in love with skincare and more recently hair care.  

Purple tube of face wash. Tatcha Brand Rice wash. Gold writing vertically of TATCHA
Face WashTatcha Rice Wash I know I can find rice washes for far less than this, but I truly enjoy the smell- which is rare for me and it makes me feel like I'm at the spa every night, so for me it's worth it. 

SoapGoat Milk Soap- From Ivory Oak Heritage Farm This was given to me as a gift, and I just ordered more for stocking stuffers. This goat milk soap is made in small batches in Austin, Minnesota. I fell in love with the Eucalyptus Mint scent (which of course was out of stock at the time of posting) but the goats milk soap leaves my skin feeling nourished and moisturized. Plus, you know you are supporting a small family farm. 

Shampoo:  I've been using the same shampoo and conditioner for almost 2 years now but over the last few months, I've felt like the shampoo isn't getting my scalp clean.  So I pulled out Gisou, a Honey Hair Wash I was gifted from a student last year and OMG it's amazing. I still love my conditioner by Living Proof (PhD) and will finish up what I have, but the Gisou leaves my scalp feeling clean in a way that Phd does not.   

Bottle of body lotion with black pump. Hempz brand with pot leaf on the front.
Body Lotion: Hempz Original Lotion. This smell transports me back to high school. But I found it at a TJ Maxx a few months ago and fell back in love with the way it makes my legs feel.  I put this on right after I get out of the shower and just on my legs.  The scent can be overwhelming if I have it closer to my nose, but it leaves my skin feeling so smooth- even on days I don't shave, which is a bonus. 

RetinolCeraVe. I've used $200 Retinol and I've used $20 retinol, and for something that comes in below the $20 mark it's just as good if not better than the more expensive products I've tried.  This is a lower dose daily retinol. I experienced no retinol "uglies" with this, I was able to use it every day from the start (though if you have really sensitive skin you should start with every other). I notice an improvement in my skin's texture and moisture retention when I use this product.  

The Ordinary brand Serum.
Day Serum: Marina- Earth Harbor This ampoule product is the best offense against mask mandate dry skin.  It also smells great, which is great for someone who spends hours a day in a mask.  This serum helps my skin stay hydrated under the mask, even when I don't drink all the water I should each day. 

Night Serum: Ordinary This Niacinamide serum from the Ordinary helps to combat the acne that masking has brought back into my life.  As a 30 something who only stopped breaking out in 2018, this development is not one that I've enjoyed, but thankfully this serum helps keep my skin healthy and breakout free. I put it around my jaw line at night. 

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Clothing and Accessories:  This year I've tried to shift into more "adult" fashion, as I often find myself blending into a sea of teenagers at work.  This has been a slower shift than I'd hoped this year as I often find I'm exhausted and leggings and an oversized sweatshirt are just easier.  ( I am super grateful that I work in a school where what I wear isn't critiqued) 


Clothing: 

  • Geometric Print dress on blonde model. Dress is white with blue and pink geometric shapes on it. The dress is knee length and has a notched neckline and short cuffed sleeves.
    Jeans Levi's 311 I still love a good skinny jean and these fit my body so well. I'd consider them mid-rise and I always feel confident stepping out of the house in these. I have them in blue and black denim.
  • Dress Geometric Dress I love this because I can dress it up or down, it packs without wrinkling and is the perfect length for work (just past the knee). 
  • Leggings Old Navy Powersoft So soft and stretchy. They hold me in but are still comfortable to wear all day on hikes and activities.  I was on the road all summer and lived out of these.  The length is perfect just above the ankle and the pockets make them perfect for a day outside. 
  • Socks Bombas These are more than I would normally every spend on socks. But as someone who spends all day on here feet, I can tell the difference that these make.  They are cushy and support each step. I'm not sore at the end of the days that I wear these. 
  • Bras True & Co If I could not wear a bra I would choose that option, but most days and with most outfits that's not a choice I can make, so, I wear true and co.  I have tried their line for target, which is about half the price, but I find the fit isn't as comfortable or as close fitting as I like.  I am a true lover of wireless, which I'm thankful I can do, I know not all tatas are made alike and that may not be an option for you, but if it is, I strongly encourage you to try out any of the bras by True and co. The one linked is my favorite, "The body V neck". 
  • Black teva sandals with adjustable ankle strap and 4 criss crossed straps across the top of the foot.
    Shoes Teva Sanborn Sandals I lived almost exclusively out of these for 47 days this summer. I hiked, walked on the beach, went to Disney, climbed mountains, mall walked, explored cities and national parks, and drove thousands of miles in these sandals. I love the support that the extra straps provide.  I do recommend a 5 mile per day limit, as the days I did more than that, I got blisters and friction burns. 
Accessories:
  • Wallet: Small RFID wallet I've now had 2 of these after losing the first one this fall.  The size is perfect, it fits in all of my purses-even the smallest ones and can easily be carried in a coat pocket as well.  There is plenty of room for cards, ID and cash.  The only downside is no room for change or Covid proof. 
  • Red hiking day pack with zippers and buckles
    Back Pack35 L Bag This was the perfect size for this summer. It fit everything I needed and then some. The straps were comfortable to carry all day around cities and parks.  I look forward to bringing this on many adventures in the future.  
  • Glasses:  My favorite pair just recently broke - so I ordered the exact same ones with a lens upgrade.  All without breaking the bank.  This is because my favorite glasses are from Eye Buy Direct*.  My favorite pair is call Ghostwriter.  They are large dark teal frames that suit my face and don't leave me with a head ache at the end of the day. 
    • Honorable mention for 2021 goes to a pair of sunglasses called Dutchess that I got in light blue with blue tinted lenses.  I previously bought a pink pair of Dutchess glasses in 2020 so I knew I liked the shape, feel and size. 
    • As some one who is use to getting a new pair of glasses every 2 years, the affordability of Eye Buy Direct* has been a blessing.  I am able to change my glasses with my style and the seasons. 
  • Scarf: Kifuyas from Hebron Arts, a store based in Hebron Palestine. They support Palestinian artists and crafts people to ensure that their traditions are carried forward. 
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HOME: Many of the products I purchased for my home this year are on back order, and will likely never be in this home as we have to move in Feb.  So below are the things I've actually  enjoyed:


Bedding: Grey Microfiber Duvet Is so soft and warm and cozy. We paired ours with a Yellow Quilt from Project 62 by Nate Berkus which provides an added layer and weight in the winter months.  We tuck it away in storage in the warmer months.  

Heating Pad:This is a product I cannot live without. I love curling up with something warm at the end of the day and this is the perfect treat. I appreciate it has an auto shut-off incase I fall asleep when its on. It is the perfect size for the length of my back or for my stomach or lower back on cramp days. 

Step stool in front of a toilet bowl called a squatty potty
Squatty Potty No home should be without one! Seriously it helps put your body in better alignment.  Your gut will thank you. 







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Monday, December 6, 2021

#This Is Good

 The church I go to has a segment at the end of church every week call #ThisIsGood and I love this, because it calls out things that may seem small that are good news happening within our faith community and I need that in my life.  So here is my This is good for the last month. 

1. My mom spent Thanksgiving with us and no one died. We had a nice meal, nice outings and good conversations and we decorated our tree together. 

2. My students continue to remind me why I do this work. They continue to put their trust in me daily and I value the connections we have. 

3. Friday Knight Live- Our schools version of SNL which is run by a lot of students I have this year. It was nice to see them in an element they enjoy- rather than my math class. 

4. I am done with Christmas shopping.  All family friends and co-workers have either already received their gifts or have been ordered for. This is actually really late for me, normally I'm done by thanksgiving, but the happenings of life and work got in the way. 

5. I'm keeping up with my paperwork. I don't feel like I'm ahead by any means, but considering my caseload nearly doubled this year, I feel good about where I am. 


That's all I've got for now.  A New Years resolution is to keep up with my this is good weekly again.  I need this in my life. 



Signing off for now

C