Sometimes I think the only way someone can understand something, without of course living the experience themselves is to be completely in detail walked through it. So here it goes. The pain in my head is so bad I can’t open my eyes. So this is being dictated. So I apologize in advance, for any issues, in terms of spelling or grammar or punctuation. Because when I open my eyes feels like someone’s pulling at them. It feels like someone yanking at them. It feels like someone’s trying to rip them out of my head!
The pain is so bad, I can feel my pulse in my fingertips. The pain is so bad that I can feel my pulse in my eyeballs. The pain is so bad that it’s making me sick. The pain is so bad I can feel my arm shaking. The pain is so bad I can’t open my eyes.
I feel like someone is trying to drill through my temples, I feel like someone has an ice pick and is trying to carve through my brain. I don’t know why anyone would want to do that I don’t know why they haven’t created my butter medication or a cure for this because living like this is insanity. I don’t know how I keep living like this. That’s a serious question there of been so many days that I don’t know how I deal with this!
Well the sides of my head feel like they’re being drilled through the front and back feel like it’s in a vice grip like someone’s pressuring down with all of the pressure of the world like I’m responsible for everything and they’re never going to let go. My anxiety because it’s ugly head, my worst case scenario meter goes off and my body wants to cry. But it hurts to cry. But it’s so badly wants to cry but if it does it’ll just make it worse I don’t know what to do.
This is a level of pain that I deal with far too frequently it’s a level of pain that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. This is not something anyone should have to deal with. That’s something I wish I didn’t deal with.
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